Last week, I was in a mood for a good cry-fest. Thanks to Netflix.com, I started playing movies I thought could get me started. I started playing The Holiday and that had me shedding a tear when Iris saw the lost Arthur Abbot and helped him find his home, which was cluttered and down-right depressing. My boyfriend came in the room, saw me, and, naturally, asked what was wrong. I began to explain and he just kind of smiled at me, probably thinking of how ridiculous I was being. He then asked me, "So which movie do you think makes you cry the most?"

I started rummaging through my brain of movies that people think are absolutely tear-worthy and would make me bawl if I watched it again. A Walk To Remember? No. The Notebook? Sweet, but I don't think so. Titanic? Sorry, but three hours is not worth it just to get one tear. The Green Mile? That was sad, but I wasn't bawling. I couldn't think of an answer so I said I don't know.

We've been dating for two years and he even knew my answer before I did. I know this is going to be really strange but the movie that tops my list of absolute can't breathe, continuous waterfall of tears, tear-jerker movie of all time, is Up.

There's something about old people that has just lost their significant other, transitioning from grief to acceptance, now living alone, while still holding on to the love they shared that gets me going. The first time I watched Up, we were at home and I made my boyfriend stop the movie because I couldn't stop crying. He tried comforting me but I can see behind that, "Everything's fine honey. It's ok," that he was holding back a laugh. Every time we try to watch it again, we have to fast-forward because I can't live through the first 20 minutes without crying.

I just realized how pathetic I am.

What's your choice?

My sister and family went to the Philippines leaving me to house-sit for them. I spent last week at home, playing house with Mike. After this weekend we decided to just bring the guinea pig, Cinnamon, here to Mike's. Mikey won't leave Cinnamon alone. He keeps tormenting the little critter, hoping to sink his teeth in him and whip him around like rag doll.

I got my Authorization To Test from the Boards of LVN. Scheduled my NCLEX for Sept 3. Haven't studied.

I've decided that I'm going to apply with the prison health care system. They pay about $3800/month for new grads. Not a bad start.

Mike's brother basically  moved out with his girlfriend. His mom is in denial because he hasn't mentioned it, but that boy hasn't been home in weeks, maybe even a month. My only issue is that he still has all his crap here. I'm just thankful that he's not leaving his clippers in the bathroom sink anymore. That really annoyed me.

I'm moving in with Mike after I get my nursing license. I'm a little excited, I guess.

Mike wants to buy a house when we move out together. Well, not a house exactly. He wants a condo or townhouse.

I just feel like my life is coming at me so fast. I'm growing up yet I still feel like I barely graduated high school. When did I become an adult?